I’m hanging in…

I am writing earlier as tiredness and bleeeaaagh have overtaken too often lately. I have never committed to writing everyday but I feel the love here.

Today I have had my worst symptom despite taking the medicine that prevents it. It leaves me feeling disgusted and lacking self-esteem. But I am over it now.

There is no change on the help front, much to my friends disgust. I have asked for the company who shouted at me to have mediation so that we might sort things out.

I have cooked myself simple meals as there is only one of me. For some reason my frying pan is missing. My cleaner might find it tomorrow. If not I’ll have to replace it.

Apart from dashing out to get groceries, the weather has kept me in. Tomorrow is forecast as dry, so I shall plant some plants and get more food.

I’m in a bad sleep mode at present, which I don’t like.

Losing the plot…

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On Tuesday my day was back to back appointments with people and the hair salon. I found myself exhausted, as I’m an introvert. Physically as well. I’d had a good breakfast but a very meagre supper. So yesterday I made sure that I had a supper packed with calories.

This morning I had guests whom I was expecting, but was caught off guard as I was responding/deleting emails and so lost track of time. We had a lovely cup of tea in the garden and they admired many of my plants, which pleased me greatly. They are both great gardeners and plantswomen.

Then I took a shower as I felt very hot outside and now I am all cool and have responded to more emails. I have had to delete some that I was hoping to read as enrichment as a writer. My life right now does not allow time for that luxury. If you are reading this please leave a message.

I feel that in the 15 days that I’ve been without help I begun to lose the plot in the last few days. I’ve been calm no breathing problems have occurred, but the last two days I have not planned my meals well.

The photo above was taken during a drive back from Southampton. I had taken my daughter and her best friend shopping, and we found ourselves in heavy traffic and it started to pour with rain. I noticed the rainbow in my side mirror and took the photo as soon as I became stationary again. It’s a photo that brings so many happy memories. I loved driving my daughter and her friends around.